Love It!!!!

This was a hard week.....for so many reasons.  But what made it even harder was after saying goodbye to all our family that came into town last week, I was promptly knocked on my butt in bed with the flu!

Sunday, we said goodbye to the last of our guests and Sabrina left to drive back to Rexburg to pack up all her stuff.  She had decided to move home and thankfully she arrived back home Monday!  Scott left early Monday morning for a business trip and wouldn't be home until late Wednesday night.

When the flu hit, it was all I could do to mumble a few requests to Sabrina and crawl into my bed.....where I stayed until today.  As a mother, there are not many times in my life that I can remember staying in bed all day, let alone for 4 days!!!  I can probably count the times on one hand!  But considering the previous week, all my reserves were completely wiped out.

What a blessing to have Sabrina home.  She ran the show.  She cooked, cleaned, put everyone to bed, ran a million errands and took kids here and there!  I could not have done it without her.

The hard part was, when I wasn't actually sleeping, all I could do was stare at all of Zachary's belongings.  All of his clothes, bouncy seat, car seat, blankets, cards we received, picture album, scrapbook, medical supplies....everything that was his, sat under the window on my side of the bed.  That's where it always was, from the time we brought him home.  His little dresser, the cabinet with all his medical supplies, stuffed animals, etc., were right there.

It wasn't a problem or an issue, it was just now I felt like it needed a more reverent place to be.....does that make sense????  I wanted a trunk.  And not just any trunk. It had to be just the right trunk.  I told Sabrina and she spent the entire week searching every store we could think of to find my trunk. 

Today she found my trunk.  I love it.  I'm so thankful for a place to keep Zachary's things.  I want them protected, kept safe from everything else.  As I started putting things in it, I felt a peace, a reverence that I had hoped for.