I did some shopping today. Christmas shopping. I made the mistake of walking through the baby section to get over to the shoe department. I had no idea I would have my heart ripped out while making my way through. I'm sure the other ladies that were shopping found it strange to see a woman start sobbing while looking at the Christmas outfits for "Baby's First Christmas". What was I thinking......
I stopped by the cemetery on the way home. I thought about Isaiah, telling everyone that comes to the house, "Our baby's body is in the grass but his spirit is up with Jesus!" He's so proud that his baby gets to be with Jesus, that Jesus is holding his baby brother.
I don't quite have his enthusiasm. The empty spot in my heart is still there. Empty arms remind me all the time that my baby is gone. I know all the right responses that we tell people when they have lost a loved one, but it still doesn't take away the pain.
I love you Zachary. I know I will see you again. I know you're in a better place, but none of that changes the fact that your Mama misses you more than I ever knew possible.
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You are not alone, we all miss him. We are so thankful of the 3 months we had with him.
i'm sorry...
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